I have 4 work days left before my job here comes to an end. I’m starting to pack up my shit, recycle papers that should have been recycled long ago. Last week, as people left for vacation, I started saying my goodbye’s. I thought that I would be sad to go, or angry, but I’m not. I’ve been thinking and I have a shitload of options, I can do all the things I wanted to do but never had time to do.
I’ve been trying to make a list of the things that I want to do while I’m jobless.
For the first month, I just need a break. I’m going to become an alcoholic and write for 31 days and see where that takes me.
In February I’ll start looking for another job. This is also the month of my birth so I will be celebrating the big 2-5, or as Bizzy would say “half of a half a century.” Yea, I have smart friends. I could do a number of things as far as jobs go; I could pursue writing, I could get certified to teach in NY State, I could start my business back up or start a new one.
I want to travel; I’m not ready to settle down or be stuck in one place. I need freedom, I need to move around. If you have a couch I could crash on let me know because I’ll probably take you up on the offer.
I want to do more than just open mic night. Maybe I’ll start a band, maybe I’ll go it alone. It would probably be best if I started a band though because I can’t sing that well, or at all. Music, performing, everything about it makes me happy and I’ll keep doing it until I’m no longer happy.
I want to go back to school eventually and get a degree in Physics of some sort.
I want to work on myself more. This past year I’ve grown so much and learned tons about myself. I’m a completely different person than I was this time last year. I like knowing that I don’t know where I’ll end up or who I’ll be a year from now. I like knowing that I don’t really have any control over that whatsoever. I like it that I can accept that I don’t have control.
So yea, I have a lot to do, a lot of options. Everything is up in the air right now but I’m not scared that I don’t have anything set in stone. I’m enjoying not knowing.